Seventeen Months Past the Cross
By: Terrie C
My week found me flapping in the wind for the first time in a long time, and I’m glad. I’m glad because when that happens here on this side of the cross, it leaves me with only my awe and reverence of Adonai to cling to. Whenever I’m in that position, I have learned, I’m so much closer to where I should be than when I’m walking around thinking I have it all together!
A recent teaching I read, right here on the “Center for Tanakh Based Studies” page left me reeling! As a “Messianic Christian” I was quick to advocate observance of all the Feasts mentioned under the “forever” guidelines of Tanakh. The author of the teaching I read planted some excellent questions in my mind about the subject. Have I been insulting my Creator by observing these days without a Temple standing? The last thing I want to do is twist His instructions to fit my beliefs! We see in Scripture that The Almighty gives precise instruction, and deviating from that never has good end results! What days should I observe per Scriptural instruction, and which days can I NOT observe? What days are only for the Jews? How about those who stand inside the gates with Israel? Which days are for everyone? Ugh… the new questions I now have!! I’m so thankful, though, to have learned not to fear the questioning! It was Christianity that taught me not to question. On this side of the cross, my questions are encouraged!
It’s funny to me how much Christian thinking, what my friend calls “Christothink”, is still lodged in my spirit, even though I’d never laid eyes on any Scriptures for myself until I was forty. I haven’t gazed at the writings that call themselves the “new” testament for about two years, yet still find myself tangled in their twisted doctrine occasionally. As time passes, it gets easier and easier to recognize when I’m tangled and to free myself from it, but I still get surprised when it happens. It’s in me, though, so I stay ever alert to it. What I didn’t understand as a Messianic Christian, I didn’t need to worry about. I just needed to “take it on faith”. Here, seventeen months past the cross, I will only “take it” on Torah!
You may be wondering what conclusion I have come to regarding the Holy Days, and which are “for me”. With no intent to disappoint, I have no conclusion to share. My knees knock to admit that. I like conclusions, too! But this subject is what might be labeled an “ongoing open investigation” for me. I still have much to learn! For instance, what is the difference between God’s Laws and His Statutes? And what is the difference between honoring and observing? I often wonder how our covenant with our Creator would be worded, if it were written as a contract would be written. What would be the points listed as “my part”? I love that the 91rst Psalm is written as such. Have you ever noticed that? Look how clearly it’s broken down….
He that dwells (MY PART) in the covert of the Most High, and abides in the shadow of the Almighty: (MY PART) I will say of the YHVH, who is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust, (MY PART) that He will deliver you (GOD’S PART) from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. He will cover you with His pinions, (GOD’S PART) and under His wings shall you take refuge; (MY PART) His truth is a shield and a buckler. You shall not be afraid (MY PART) of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day; of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that wastes at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand; it shall not come near you. (GOD’S PART) Only with your eyes shall you behold, and see the recompense of the wicked. For you have made YHVH, who is my refuge, even the Most High, your habitation. (MY PART) There shall no evil befall you, neither shall any plague come near your tent. For He will give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. (GOD’s PART) They shall bear you upon their hands, lest you dash your foot against a stone. You shall tread upon the lion and asp; the young lion and the serpent shall you trample under feet. ‘Because he has set his love (MY PART) upon Me, therefore will I deliver him; I will set him on high, (GOD’s PART) because he has known My Name. He shall call upon Me, (MY PART) and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him, and bring him to honour. With long life will I satisfy him, and make Him to behold My salvation.’ (GOD’S PART).****
I think it’s so important that we learn what “our part” really entails as we sojourn through this world. In Christianity, I was taught that ‘my part” was to do even greater things than Jesus. Still haven’t met a believer who could make new skin grow or multiply food. (although that would be grand!) I was taught my part was to heal others through prayer, yet still attended funerals. I was taught my part was to believe I was healed, but my body sure didn’t back that up! I was taught that anything would be given me, if I asked for it in Jesus’ name. Hmmm, I won’t even touch on the results of that! Is it any wonder so many believers walk away from the church when they see the results of taking things “on faith”?
Here on this side of the cross, I’m still learning “my part”. And that’s okay. I have a feeling my lesson will be lifelong, and that’s okay, too! What I know is that my Creator sees my desire to please Him, to understand Him, and to obey Him. I can rest right there while He makes my life my classroom, and shows me where and how each Scriptural concept is to be applied to myself.
It is my genuine desire that this article will prompt you, dear reader, to evaluate your own part in this covenant relationship with The Almighty. There is no greater place in which we could stand!
“See” you soon! -Terrie